Your life's events are a series of small brush strokes that make up an entirely unique and exquisite piece of art.
Even if you tried to copy another artwork, stroke for stroke, it would never be exactly quite the same.
You can't fail at life because there is no perfect picture, just unique stories. Every time you "fall off the waggon" or look back and think "if only I had kept going, imagine where I would have been"... you are living in someone else's story.
Stay in your own lane and realise that what you consider failures are just attempts/ trials which teach us how to plan our next moves. Forgive yourself and move forward, you can’t do that if you’re constantly looking behind you.